This is the most emotionally stressful night I’ve gone through with Ashley in a good while.
I apparently need to be more emotional and express my feelings more often.
I’m just not really that kind of a person though. I don’t express myself easily. Never Have.
So, It’s just going to be like that. Either we’ll get around it or we wont. Time will tell.
P.S. I’m probably going home in june! I’ll get to see family, friends, Ashley, old places, etc… Gillian said that she’d be home too! So, thats cool. I was thinking she’d still be in China, but guess not! Too bad Brittany isn’t though. She said she’d be in Japan for as long as she could. Little booger 
Its 11:47pm, I have work tomorrow. Time for a stress reliever smoke, a shower, then bed.
Goodnight Readers
JBH
